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Standing at the corner, unseen
stretching out my hand to the ones in need
some reached out and held on tight
but some burnt me with fire
yet I still reach out to those in need
Aries
When in love, you don a pair of rose-tinted glasses
and the world is a magical place for you.
The idea of romance captivates you
and you ignore all else to be near your beloved.
Candlelight dinners, soft music, slow dances,
late night walks hand in hand by the light of the moon
on remote windswept beaches
everything is possible, and it does not stop there,
Aries will profess undying love for their beloved
a promise they are most likely to keep.
Because of your love,
I've learnt to love.
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Friday, September 01, 2006
things changed
turned ugly
never expected it to be
we talked on the phone 30Aug06
honestly, i missed you
but i couldnt get it out of my mouth
cus i know i've hurt you
nothing i could do to undo the wrong
when you started to shout at me
my heart broke
when my heart broke hearing
"i hate you"
from you verbally
nothing could mend this crack anymore
and i realised my feelings are true
i kept quiet wen you shouted at me
felt so hurt
i guess perhaps you really hated me
for the first time
somehow i knew you were viewing the video
i switched on my comp
heard the songs
heard our songs
i teared along
mayb u'll delete that memory
but i know i couldnt
at that point
i was wondering if you'll sincerely ask me stay
cus i guess i probably would have
but i know you wont
cus i know tats not something you'll do
would anyone even understand wad im doing here?
i guess not
i don even dare to tell my bestie
my thots
my mindset
cus i know no one would understand
im jus trying to minimise the aftereffects
but i know you cant see it
i've lost my love
i've also lost my heart
in fact i've lost myself
i put this smile for others to see
but who sees the pain when im alone?
cant even cry to laoda
cus she'll ask and i'll feel the hurt again
it cuts a deeper crack when they mention your name
the pain could never be erased
would i be happy leaving?
many asked
how could i answer that?
i guess i'll never be
but thats just something that i've gotta do
cus i dowan her hurt you deeper
its hard to say i l*ve her
cus i've lost my love
but mayb one day
if only i'll find back the love
i find myself listening to ur songs
i find myself looking at ur pics again and again
i find myself looking at ur gifts to me
i find myself reading posts i've done for you
i find myself returning to places we went before
i find myself scribbling ur name on sketch paper
i find myself wearing clothes you bought for me
i find myself eating things you like
(ate fried stuffs till im still sick)
i find myself laughing at jokes i remember you saying
i find myself smiling wen i remember your silly face
i find myself crying wen i tink of you
i find myself crying wen i remember you hated me
i find myself crying wen i hate myself for hurting you
i find myself pretending im happy wen im not
i find myself hugging cynderlala tighter each night
and
i find myself loving you more as i hated myself
but i know nothing matters now
time could never turn back
and i know you wont wann me back
neither am i fit to go back into ur arms
and i know
you're still part of me
-cynderella
-xiaozhuzhu
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9:05 AM
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24 March
1981
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