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Standing at the corner, unseen
stretching out my hand to the ones in need
some reached out and held on tight
but some burnt me with fire
yet I still reach out to those in need
Aries
When in love, you don a pair of rose-tinted glasses
and the world is a magical place for you.
The idea of romance captivates you
and you ignore all else to be near your beloved.
Candlelight dinners, soft music, slow dances,
late night walks hand in hand by the light of the moon
on remote windswept beaches
everything is possible, and it does not stop there,
Aries will profess undying love for their beloved
a promise they are most likely to keep.
Because of your love,
I've learnt to love.
Entries
Thursday, September 30, 2004
i dono hw to start lehz.. Gt so much to say n yet... dono wat to say... wat roger din do huhz? *blur* anyway, hw u liaoz? still sick? no ai xin liang cha ah? c larz.. i nt thr, d germs go find u... always sick... i so healthy nw... issit? hahaz.. i dono oso larz.. don dare to get sick... else sure qq w her... bt nw oso lidat larz... these few dayz din reali feel veh gd larz... monday, quarrelled w daddy... simply coz i din mop d floor... veh guo fen lorz... i gotta work on wk ends n stardi on wk dayz.. yet i still gotta do housework... i din mop d floor coz i washed toilet in d mornin, thn hand washed mi clothes, machine wash another basket of clothes, vacuum n swept d whole house... bloody... tink i still gt energy mop d floor...? during wk ends he n sis onli slp n watch tv... i still outside thr standin for more thn 10 hours lorz... aft tat still gotta send snail baq... monday evening still gotta tk mi advanced test... don even haf time to stardi lorz... i still help him clean up d house lorz... aft test sent snail baq... thn go mi aunt's house took 2 heavy bags of mooncakes hm... w/o any 'thank u', he still complained coz i bot extra oranges (tot mi aunt din buy for bai bai)... said tat i useless... damned sad lorz... bt wat to do..???? Tues his bday.. i din even wish him happy bday... since nw, we stil din tok...
tues aft sociology lecture, went to mit snail... waited @ her bus stop... (she was shoppin w her mami @ toa payoh)... Wen hm, she asked mi wat happened on monday... i told her n she scolded mi... sayin tat nobody c mi up coz i din work, n i huo gai coz i chose to stardi... instead of consoling mi, she scolded mi... said stardi onli let ppl look down on mi... most impt is gt money... wen i workin @ ocbc, i gt money, tatz y sis doin housework... nw i gt no money, i'm lyk a slave lidat... sayin all tings to break mi heart... i cried silently, she still cont... her mother was in d kitchen wen i wanna go wash mi face... i lowered mi face coz i don wanna let her c i was crying... of coz i've gt no mood to tok mahz... her ma said i gif her attitude, gif her black face c... always say i gif her attitude... i cooled down... taught snail mathematics, did her newspaper articles while she do her D&T proj... thn her mom told her tat wat her uncle's wife said... (her uncle's wife was mi sec sch mate)... i onli noe by her name lorz... And tat BITCH told snail's mother tat we were fr d same POLY lorz... Well, she's fr TP n mi fr NYP... Said tat i always gossip behind others' back... Alot ppl fr poly dislike mi... I haven even tok bout her wat i heard fr mi frenz lorz.. n she said all those... n snail's mom believed lorz n gave mi attitude... tink i lyk tat? nt onli tat lorz.. every1 fr her family has nv failed to tok bad abt mi lorz... WTF!! I reali had enough... i noe snail don believe... bt i reali don feel gd lorz... She din comfort mi... She just went to tat BITCHY aunt's house celebrate mooncake festival... nt even a SMS fr her askin weder i've eaten or reached hm ntz... Finez... i went hm lorz...
Wed... wanna acc her to work de.. bt itz rainin quite heavily so i said i fetch her fr work... so i did mi AF tut, read some sociology... thn i mixed liquor w 7UP... drank abt 3/4 cup bahz... i told her i drank... she no reaction... din even asked y i mixed... d fact is i was feeling down, reali down... tym to go fetch her... i din watch last part of charmed, in d rain... i put mi hand on her shoulder wen i saw her, she said "u wanna let every1 noe we together issit" C'mon lorz.. evey1 @ Mac noes abt us lorz... Thn on d way to d bus stop, i wanna hug her on d escalator, i wanna hold her, she pushed mi away... Fine lorz... i don go near her lorz... i kept quiet... she was so bz listenin to her cd... thn she said i gave her attitude... I said "since u don wanna mi go near u, thn i don lorz.." she PC lorz... don wanna tok to mi lorz... Am i wrong? We typed on d hp, she said she onli playin, wanna get so serious? I'm nt in d mood to play lorz... n she don behave as if she's playin lorz... N said i always gif her mom attitude... next tym don go to her house... donid to fetch her.. her mom don lyk coz i always gif her attitude... if she don provoke mi, don qq w mi, tink i'l gif attitude..? thn said she has nv given mi dad attitude wen mi dad always gif her attitude... pls lorz.. as if siaz...
Whneva i go out w her n her mom... i gotta act lyk a fool to entertain her mom lorz... wen i tok, snail asked mi shut up... str8 to mi face lorz.. as if i wont feel hurt lidat... ok, i shut up, thn she says i gif dem attitude... coz i kept quiet, i walked behind dem... thn she will come to mi, asked y i so attitude, i said she asked mi shut up lorz.. thn she will gimme one tight slap in public lorz... or scold mi... cant i just b quiet wen i am reali tired..? i'm quiet by nature mahz... wen i noisy is wen i reali nt feelin veh gd lorz.. i quiet dosen min i gif attitude lorz.. coz of her, i tolerated... for wat? tot she'l change, bt she din... i din force her to change, coz i gotta accept her... is dis love? i starting to doubt it... so i decided to leave... she din wanna it... she said y wanna mk a fuss out of it? thn later, she din sms mi liaoz...
during lectures, i tried to pay attention... i tried look @ other gals to divert mi attention... bt i still worryin bout her... i dono weder she gt eat nt... etc. din haf any news fr her... i don wanna go hm... don wanna tink of her wen i step into mi room... so here i am @ mi aunt's house... i noe she has done alot for mi... bt i reali dono wat to do... nobody likes us being together...
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About Me
Serena @ laoda/nanny/ahma
24 March
1981
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Aries
Loves
Teddy
Cyn @Mmy/meimei
Ahlia @rascal
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